Fear is Settling In Now

The fear is settling in now

I heard it would happen

I should expect this time

It is it part of my healing

I thought it would be easier

But it isn’t

The sense of the loss of family

The separation from friends

The regret of things

I would like to have changed

I wish never happened

But I can’t do anything

About anything

I am very confused

I don’t have a clear path

I don’t even want one

I have always resisted

The forms of fear

The hopelessness

The grief

The anguish

The doubt

The shame

The guilt

It is all coming at once

I can’t stop it

I don’t have the strength